Something Called Me

I’m so sorry that I didn’t update the blog a couple of months, last March and April. At least, if I can’t updating this blog weekly, I want to update monthly. Well, I failed in both ways. Haha. Like people cares. Ah, whatever.

On this occasion, I really don’t know what to write, so I think I’ll just post my March’s diary and something you can call it ‘me.’ Don’t ask me what is it. Neither do I know. And yes, I’m totally not sane, at all. Aaaa~ I love to admit it :3

Okaaay, I won’t blabber you anymore. Folks, I don’t have any responsibility if you get a headache, throwing out or anything bad ‘cause reading this :P Oh, and I’m not that good in English. Sorry for the bad grammar, then ._.v

A/N: I just remembered, my laptop is being fixed, and they said that I’m losing my data. Aaaand, the good news is.. My March’s diary is in it. Sadly, I won’t be able to post it L I’m really feel sorry about this. So, this post is just about something-you-can-call-it-me.

Folks, you know I can’t post my March’s diary, then we’re just heading to something-you-can-call-it-me. Do you want to know what is it? :P It’s just facts my thoughts about me. Hahahaha.. I hope you’re not disappointed.

1.       I lack ability in sports (every single thing on it; basketball, volleyball, swimming, etc.), art, cooking, baking, and maths.

2.       I sort of nerd girl, but, hell, you can’t call me a geek (which means the same as nerd .//.) just because I’m wearing the glasses.

3.       Always wanted to go abroad.

4.       I’m sure, I really am so hard to understand, sometimes—neither do I understand.

5.       I’m a simple-minded person generally, but can be so complicated in some specific stuff, especially something whose an embarassing feel affects me.

6.       Well, I’d like to have a stoic face. But I think it can’t be helped. So, in other hand, I want to be like an actress, you know, a face which can show many emotion even you’re not in that mood.

7.       Via always said that I’m good at poker-facing :/ because I have no expression at all.

8.       People asks me, sometimes I just like ‘no, I won’t,’ People tells me, I’m listening and only listening, not intending to do. People critizes me, I’d try to be better.

9.       I’m not a good speaker. I get nervous easily, but sometimes people sees me as a confident. You can’t be more wrong, folks. I’m an unconfident girl and I think that’s why I keep my head hang low a~ll the times.

10.   Sometimes—most of the times, I feel, people never listen and care about me /shrug

11.   I sleep earlier or later.

12.   I love anime, manga, movie, fanfict, novel, and drama.

13.   I cry because of a fight/war scene.

14.   Drama, humour, action, adventure, school, teen, and so on are my genres.

15.   I dislike heroic scenes, kissing scenes, and romantic scenes. Those are only making an awkward moment for me.

16.   I love RnB, ballad, and some rap.

17.   I can’t control my mouth, muchless, when the emotion controls me over. Words are flooding out of my mouth and the worst is.. I hurt people with those crappy words of mine.

18.   “That awkward moment when your voice is too loud and people keep seeing you blabbering.”

19.   I’m not a popular girl like Lexy, or whoever they are called. How nice I’m trying to be, I’ll never be popular. And I’m not so interested at being popular, people will always say your bad-sides. I’m making sure; is a succesfull people really need to be popular?

20.   “How’s life?” | “Forward as ever, stop as never.”—always wanted to sayit.

21.   “Yaa! Lee Jung Hwan! Justdon’t be so cute and making me love you even more!”

22.   Silly and messy mix together.

23.   Forever alone. And please, God, don’t make it Forever Engineer. Because it doesn’t match, does it?

24.   When my head got dizzy, it would remain until weeks. Gosh~

25.   “Being perfect isn’t fun at all. It won’t allow us to change anything and we’ll keep the same everyday. Isn’t that boring?”

26.   “Sometime I think life is unfair. Umm, lemme think about it once more. Hey, life is fair in its way, how we see other people is what making it looks unfair.”

27.   Sort of masochist ._.v

28.   “That awkward moment when people keep offering you something you don’t really want and need.”

29.   I’m afraid of those people who applying thick make-ups. They’re look fake.

30.   I crazily love chocolate, before throwing out of chocolate. And the next day, I’ll love it again, like I never loved something before.

31.   Every single messed thing, it has a special domino effect on me; everything behind will be messed, too.

32.   Luckily, I’m awesome-brainded.

33.   But easily brainfreezed.

34.   Sometimes, I’m mumbling to myself unconsciously.

35.   Delusional, that word can describe me.

36.   And, obviously, I hate when people keep interfering in my problem. “Hey, it has nothing to do with you. Geez.” and I want to yell them.

37.   “Why most of my past-times are so embarassing to remember?”

38.   It’s so miserable to think that I’m trying to make myself pathetic /sobs

39.   I know I can’t sing well. But I love this song, so I’m still gonna singing it.

40.   “Clumsy” is my middle name.

41.   I really understand I’m capable to do many things. Laziness makes it hard to do.

42.   Never had my birthday to be my day. Bad luck’s chasing me~

43.   My hands are really can’t understand what I’m telling them to do.

44.   I always wanted to meet a boy who can understand what I’m saying. Communication is the most important thing, isn’t it?

45.   That’s right! Miscommunication is the worst problem.

46.   I hate it when I’m eating something crunchy while watching TV. I can’t hear what they said. And I know everyone agree with me.

47.   A naïve girl.

48.   Past times show me that I’m a kind person yet an evil.

49.   I don’t know why my mother sometimes can out of topic when talking with me.

50.   I love my brothers just because they’re funny to be my ‘doll.’

Yeaaaay~ I finish this :D

How about it? Is it good? :P

Umm, it’s finished and I’m leaving now. Byeee~ :*